Friday 20 August 2021

Not in the greatest mood!

Hello everyone, today is not a good day for me.

Sunday 8 August 2021

Heatwave again?!

Hello everyone, I just heard that the heatwave is returning the new month or so, the last heatwave was bad enough, what is happening? let me know what you think of this below. thanks.

Now Officially on Telegram!

Hello all, I am now officialy on Telegram. https://t.me/jamieb452

Wednesday 12 May 2021

Tears and pain

I lay here with tears falling down my cheeks, thoughts of worry rushing through my mind. I try do everything in my human ability to put a smile on every person I see, no matter if deep down I am suffering. I've cried more times then I could count. If only my pains and lonelyness would disappear. I'm sorry, sorry for everything.

Monday 12 April 2021

Cold and lonely

Hello all, I feel cold and lonely with a shadow of horrid thoughts, my emotions are broken, my soul crushed, thoughts each day I wake is "Why should I be here?", but i'm only holding on with the only warmth I have that is of my cat Tibbles, otherwise i'd have no hope at all. Why must I suffer this horrid pain?

Friday 5 February 2021

There will only be the last

I myself have shed so many tears of loneliness deep within me, the coldness, pain, it sits in my soul and I have to bare each day with the thought that haunts every bit of me, feeling as if there will be no warmth for me, no feeling to smile.

The very pain which hurts a kind soul, one that only wanted to make others happy, I cry each day with how ashamed I am living in comfort, only knowing there are others out there living with horror of where they might end up, and what next day will bring.

I only want to be happy, not wanting anymore. If I could change the world to see a single soul smile, I'd save the moment the same way I miss seeing my own true smile.

As I type this.... tears are streaming down my face.

I hope to find my own true smile.